Now I bet you are all thinking – I don’t believe this, she is losing more than people actually dieting? We want proof! I admit I felt great this week. I kept up my walking, started my kettle bell class which I loved and was feeling particularly smug on the morning after when I got up and didn’t ache as much as I had expected to. This feeling was replaced at about 2pm when I got up from my desk at work to go to the loo and thought I may need a Zimmer frame to get me there! Still eating exactly what I want, but in fairness I have increased my veg and fruit intake, but made a list of the ones I like – not the ones that I am supposed to like because they are good for me. Pulled on a pair of freshly washed jeans and they went straight up without me having to roll around on the bed and do lunges to get into them. Strutted to work in them and felt great. Posted this fact on FB support group and got lots of comments. Went to my weigh in. And had put on 2 pounds. Oh the irony!!
I laughed as I got off the scales – not quite the reaction that I think the girl weighing me expected. ‘Oh dear’, she said ‘have you had a bad week’? ‘Not at all’, I responded and went to chat with the lovely lady who I had met the week before. Whilst we were chatting, lovely lady number 2 came over with my Beyond Chocolate book. ‘wow’ she said – ‘it makes so much sense and is so interesting’. I admit I was surprised as I thought she hadn’t taken it. Another lady came and asked if she and her friend could both borrow it if it was free and did I know if it was available on kindle? And so the class began. We went round the class as is the format, congratulating people on their weight loss and sympathising with those that had stayed the same or gained. Lovely lady 2 had a night out coming up and was dreading it. ‘I never go out, ‘she said ‘I always have a horrible time’. There were a few nods, and ‘ooh I’m the same, I haven’t been out for over a year’ type comments. I bit my tongue. Very hard for me. And then it came to my turn. ‘Oh dear’ said the consultant what happened?
I laughed. ‘Nothing happened’. I said. ‘I have done exactly what I have done all the way through (which is no lie) and this week have increased my exercise and I feel fantastic. I do not intend to let a set of bloody scales tell me that I should feel crap about that!’. There was a stunned silence and then cheering and a loud round of applause. Somebody said, ‘God I wish I had your positivity’. I decided to open up a bit without revealing all and told them that my journey had been a very long one and that I had had to stop dieting completely for 2 years to come to terms with the whole diet/binge cycle. I said for me it was about no longer binging anymore which was the most important thing to me. To me over eating was overeating, whether it was apples, chicken or biscuits. The consultant looked a bit wary of where it was all going and moved onto the next person.
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